I am stressed beyond comprehension. I have two jobs that never give me a day off. (besides thanksgiving where every place is closed, I only have one day off this whole month) I am constantly tired, I am constantly sober, I feel like I cannot take a deep enough breathe to calm myself down. I feel like I am alienated from all my friends because they don’t want to “tempt” me while they smoke pot or do drugs. Listen guys, you aren’t going to tempt me. I made this choice and I’m sticking to it. JUST BE MY FRIEND PLZ!

The only person not afraid to hang out with me, is going through some of the toughest stuff in his life right now and although I am completely happy to be there to support him, I feel like if things don’t get better for either of us, I might not be able to hold on much longer. 

Also, for having two jobs right now, somehow I am still shit broke? And I’m supposed to start paying for my phone bill and start paying my mom back for the loan she gave me so I could get a new computer waaaaay back in January. (thanks momma <3)

I know that the rest of 2011 is going to be ridiculously hard to get through, I just hope when it becomes 2012 it will get better. Even if it is the “end of the world.”